I’m on the verge of releasing a book that I’ve worked extremely hard on. I don’t know about anyone else but I can sum up what I’m feeling right now in two simple words…
Excitement and Resignation.
Now I know that sounds halfway negative and I don’t mean it to be. In fact, there’s a healthy thought process behind it. Here’s the thing, I’ve been working on the world of Haven (of Dante) for some years now. I set out to create a world where spinoff characters that preceded her in the family line could easily be incorporated into a much larger mythos. When Davy Fisher joined me to create the artwork for the graphic novel, he gave up two years of his life to work on it. So did I. My family joined me in that effort. I must be a glutton for punishment because I turned around and did it again for the prose version. No worries though; I loved every minute of it.
The graphic novel released in 2010 and received not one bad review. There were those that read it who asked me why it wasn’t more popular. “I’m trying as hard as I can to get the word out,” was always my answer. I attended signing after signing and con after con only to find that the comics audience is primarily only interested in Batman and Superman, making nasty comments on forums and playing dress up. Yes, there are some with broader tastes but finding them has taken some life out of me. I even wrote a post titled, “Goodbye to Haven” but never published it. In it I talked about how Haven of Dante: The Staff of Moshe was going to be my last shot at reaching an audience. This book was going to be a test run into the literary market as opposed to the world of comics. And no, this rant is not about making money or manipulating people into buying it. It’s about accomplishing what it was originally intended to accomplish. That is to touch lives. And like it or not, this can only be measured in sales and feedback.
So why did I write this novel? Because it’s in my nature to finish what I start. And with a sobering reality of everything I mentioned above, I have to keep my sanity in check and manage my expectations. I always will love this world and its characters. I even remember getting sorely depressed when I was finished editing. I’m not a quitter. Never have been.
So with all of this said, I’m sending my baby off to college to see what she can accomplish on her own. I will be there to support her and guide her but the decision to succeed will be hers alone. I will do my best to give her the tools that she needs to succeed.
That’s what’s going through my mind as the release nears.
So Haven, this one is up to you. But don’t worry. I’m right behind you.
Haven of Dante: The Staff of Moshe releases on Thursday, October 31st!
Leonardo Ramirez is an author of Science Fiction and Steampunk. Visit Leonardoverse: Science Fiction for the Human Condition.